Well tonight has been a rough night.. Just so many different feelings. Anger, hurt, sadness, frustration. All jumbled up in my body. I know that what happened is done and over with. Its time for me to pick up my head and move on. Look to the future that is coming my way.. Its hard but i know i can do it. I'm willing to make this work because I truly love this man. More than he knows. I hope everything goes the way I want it to but I know its only going to go the way God has planned. And thats fine.. i trust him. I know he'll never give me something I can't handle. I just have to be patient and have faith! and thats what i'm going to do.. Just Have Faith
The past few days have been a little rough for me. With my husband deployed it seems like everything was slowly falling apart. My starter on my car is going out so that has to be replaced. My computer has been acting up but I'm hoping that I fixed it. Tight on money but I can handle that. It was just one thing after another. But then it all took a 360 turn when I got my first phone call from my husband while he's been overseas! And a skype date all in one night!! I couldn't ask for anything better. It was such a great end to my day. Just to see his face and hear his voice made me forget about all the bad and focus on the good. I know i need to focus on the positive more than the negative and that is one of my goals to fix about myself while he is gone. I wouldn't change my life for anything and I can't wait until my husband is back home and in my arms! <3
Today was a rough day for me.. My best girlfriend that I met out here in Cali went back home to Wisconsin. It was another sad "see you later" that I had to go through. It's bad enough that my husband is deployed. But now the girl who was my backbone since he left is also gone. I am here in Cali living on my own. New area for me. New people to meet. Its definately a roller coaster of emotions. I know I will make it through this deployment but I just miss him so much. Its a new experience for us. We've been through a lot since he joined the Marine Corps but this deployment definately tops it all! I just have to stay positive through all of this! I am a strong woman! And I will defeat this battle! no doubt about it!
